I Guess I Have Some Explaining to Do...

Hi guys,

It's been a while, not just writing on this blog, but in person. I guess I have to offer some sort of explanation as to why I haven't shown my face around fellowship lately.

I was talking to my friend the other day about how he quit one of his bands. As a musician, there's nothing off-handed about quitting a band. Anyway, when I asked him why he quit, he said that he stopped enjoying what they were doing. I asked when he realized that he wasn't into it anymore and he said,

"The other day, I knew I had practice. And I said to myself, 'Man, I have practice..." That's when I knew that I wasn't into it anymore."

Every Friday, around 5 or 6, I say to myself, "Aw man, I have fellowship tonight..." Why I feel this way is still a mystery to me. All I know is that I get stressed out just thinking about going. I think part of it is that I'm just so exhausted these days that I'm IN BED by 11. We're lucky if lesson ends by then. I would rather not go and be irate and annoyed.

If that makes me a bad person, I guess I'm ok with that for now. I wish there was a way that I could hang out with you guys but not stay out so late. I'm sure this will pass sooner or later so don't freak out. I just need a little break.